02/04/2026
WARNING!! If You Do Not have the Stomach to watch Someone having a Siezure then Scroll along!! This is the side of Me that None of You See but My Poor Little People have to Suffer Seeing Me This Way Everytime they Strike Me!!
Well as I told Yous' Five Weeks Ago that I had 4 Siezures in 24 hrs and REFUSED to send out and Ambulance to Me saying it was NOT LIFE THREATENING!! (Against the NHS Guidance of 3 Siezures in 24hrs is a Medical EMERGENCY!!) Yet it then took Me a Whole Week of literally being "BrainDead!" before I finally once again Knew Who the F**k I was and Where the F**k I was etc!! Then a Further 2 weeks of Physical Recovery as 1 Siezure=equivalent of running the London Marathon and So that day I basically ran 4!!
Well then a week past last Monday!! I had another Siezure, the One in the Video!! It Started as I was Standing up in My Kitchen with My 23 Month Old Son stood there just Staring at His Mummy thinking no doubt WTF!!!!! Just like His 4 elder Siblings usually witness! 😭 Well John dragged Me from the Kitchen and Lay Me on the Couch where it continues for a Short While before the Monster Grunting Kicks in!! This Siezure wasn't actually that bad as I was awake and back to Normal just over an hr later when Usually I'm out for the Whole day if Not Longer!! (Worst Ever 5 Weeks Ago with the 3 weeks recovery!) I say I was Okay but 2 hrs later I went to sit on the garden bench with My lil man, I slipped on the Concrete step, went Flying in the air and forward 2 metres before I slammed down off the concrete ground and was left screaming in extreme pain, pi***ng with blood all grazed up and unable to walk as Smashed just below the knee and still have a bruise and hard lump almost 2 weeks later!! Now left with Scars from the scabs I was left covered in that came off on their own but before they should have!! I was crying My eyes out with No actual tears and I only just Missed landing on My lil man!! So Grateful I took the Hit and Not Him!!
Well Anyways!! I'm left confused and stuck in basic isolation as I am being told that I DO NOT HAVE EPILEPSY, Without any proper investigation over an 8 Year Period and that the Actual reason I Suffer them is because I Cause them MYSELF Psychologically!! (A good job that last appointment 3 weeks ago was on the Phone as I Do Not Recieve Bu****it from Other's Very Well!!)
So I would Really Love to Know if Anyone Else Who's body Usually Twists completely like the EXORCIST as they go into a Violently agressive Siezure has been Told Also like Me that it is ALL Their FAULT!! (Don't worry, I am Not that bad in this Video and Why I am Posting This One!!) However I would Love to Know as Follows.......
1. Show Me One Person Who can manoouver through this world Stress free Especially when they are a Mother!!
2. Show Me One Person able to Completely shut their Thought processes down and wander throughout everything without a Single Care in the World!
3. Show Me One Person Who Suffers the Same Way that Me, John and Our Little people Do from such serious events and who are Just Left the F**k Alone to Get on with it All with No Proffessional Help Whatsoever!!
4. Show Me One Person Who Suffers Severe Siezures in the Same Way and Been Told it is All their Fault+!
5. Show Me One Person that does Not Stop Siezuring and Needs Hospitalized indefinitely because if Physiologically the cause then they really would Not Stop as it is Virtually Impossible to Not Worry or Stress at Any Point in Time in This Abhorrent World We Live in!!
I am told to send My videos, they will take them into consideration along with My answers to their questions and will repeat an eeg on top of the only other one I've ever had and if they rule Non Epileptic Siezures They are Not Going to TREAT ME OR PRESCRIBE ME ANYTHING!! Well No Change there then really as I've been Battling this for 8 years as it is!! Reacted to Meds in the Beginning and have Left Me with None Ever Since!! Not that I would Even Trust them After All This Bu****it Anyways as My Head is Just Like WTF is Actually Going on!!
In ALL This TIME!! Have Never Once Recieved Any Leaflets of Information or Advised Any Guidance as What to Do if a Siezure Strikes and How Best to Look After Me in that Moment So I Do Not Swallow My Tounge, Bite it Off which I imagine would be hard with not enough teeth left in My mouth to make it possible So This Ugly C**T is quite Grateful for that tbh but Yeah, Basically F**koff and Suffer They May have Well of Said which is No Different to what have been doing for 8 Years'!!
n if they have a Cheek to come back at Me with that Officially but if proceed to tell Me they will keep an eye on Me Once a Year then that's When I shall Be Telling Them to "Get to F**k", You're Making No Money from Me by Keeping Me On Your Books to Not actually TREAT ME in Anyway!! I May Suffer Neurological Problems but I Still Hold My Intelligence at this Point So Do Not TREAT ME Like a Fool and Think I Will Just Happily Except All Future Failings aswell as My Past One's!" Remind Me Who is an Idiot cause it is Not F**king Me!!!!!
Well F**K the Absolutely Disgusting Pathetic Useless Kettering General Hospital!!
Once Again I will no doubt be in the wrong for voicing My opinion aswell as concerns but LISTEN UP!!
I Am My Own Person!! I Own My Own Feelings Nobody Else!! Therefore if I Feel in Anyway Let Down Failed or Left to Just Rott Everytime with NO JUSTICE Then Absolutely EVERY SINGLE F**KING TIME I WILL PUT IT OUT TO THE WHOLE F**KING WORLD AND SHOUT IT FROM THE ROOF TOPS IF I HAVE TO AS I SIMPLY DO NOT ACCEPT BEING FORCED TO LIVE MY LIFE IN SUCH A WAY THAT ALL IT DOES IS AFFECT ME, MY FAMILY AND OUR ENTIRE WORLD!! If that is what is expected of Me Every Single Time then I will REACT in This Way Every Single Time as Life is Far Too Precious To Just Sit here and F**king Take it and That is F**king That!! My Life is PRICELESS!!
ALSO TO ALL NON UK CITIZENS THINKING OF MOVING THEIR WORLD HERE TO START AGAIN AND HAVE A BETTER ONE THEN DON'T AS THE WHOLE OF THE UK IS CURRENTLY ON IT'S ARSE AND DOES NOT CARE ABOUT ANY OF US!! NEVER HAS AND NEVER WILL!! OUR COUNTRY IS REALLY NO DIFFERENT TO YOUR COUNTRY!! FACT!!
Last but NOT LEAST!! If I was to Force My Little People to Suffer Psychologically in Anyway then I would Be Deemed a Bad Mother and No Doubt Loose Them aswell as Be Prosecuted!! So Who the F**k Do I Prosecute for My Little People having to Suffer Psychologically Everytime They See Their Mother Suffer a Siezure and there's Nothing they can Do to Help except Watch or Hope for the Best Everytime that their Mother will Be Okay and Come Out the Otherside!! Whilst Knowing that One Day that May Really Not Be the Case and Throughout it All Not Even Beable to Phone their Mother an as they will be Refused as Their Mother just is Not that F**king Important in Anyway to Anyone Apparently and She Should Just Be Left the F**k Alone to Suffer and One Day DIE!! (Before Her Time, Like Far Too Many Others' Already Have!!)
What an Absolute S**t Show!! Yet Here I Am Still Living My Life and Throwing My Middle Fingers' in the Air to the SYSTEM!! SICK BASTARDS' THE LOT OF YOU!!!!!!! AS LONG AS IT'S NOT ONE OF YOURS' AY!!!!!!!
P.S........GO F**K YOURSELVES YOU ABSOLUTE HORRID ROTTEN K***Z!!!!!!!
